So this morning sermon was about accepting Jesus as my Savior. How do you do that? When do we do that? It is one day. I was born a Methodist!! I have never not known God. He has always been in my life no matter how young I was or if I went to church on a regular basis. The one question that got me this morning was.... why do I need to be saved? Am I sinner?
As most of you know, I have a step son. His name is Wyatt. I have been in his life since he was born- we have been through a lot with Wyatt. His mother, unstable as she may be, has caused him great pain throughout his short life. We have dealt with him missing, not being able to see him for 3 months and been reamed over the coals for being good parents to him. We have a major lawyer bill that we have added up fighting for him to save him from a life that will lead him no where. He has not been taught how to teach people. He has no idea how to follow rules and to accept his actions. Now, we are trying to teach him within the small time we have... some times succeeding and sometimes just putting up a good fight. No matter what happens, we still fight with all our might and will to make sure he is OK.
Another comment that was made was that we need to love all and treat all the same. Always have open arms to others and welcome them with open arms.... I have one issue with that. How do you treat someone like that when they spend their time hurting someone who cannot fight for himself. How do you forgive when that person lives to hurt a child because of something out of their control? Wyatt's mother has no idea what unconditional love is. Wyatt is not dressed, fed, bathed or taken care of at all. He takes care of himself most of the time or we do it for him. He is pushed off on this person or that one and is left out of her life many times. We have asked her to give him up to us, and she refuses even though she knows she is not taking care of him. Just to hurt Cody--- so how do love someone like that. How do you accept someone like that and treat them kindly.
Now, we have always respected her. We do not judge her life unless it deals with Wyatt. No name calling, making fun of her or how she looks or immature behavior . She is living off everyone else when she is fully capable of working. She cannot hold a job is what the problem is. She never finishes anything she starts. As a tax payer that makes me angry why she isn't out there working like the rest of us to make a living. Why do I have to pay extra just for her to live like she does. Which leads back to why isn't Wyatt getting taken care of. She has all this time and money what is the excuse?
We have tried to work with her to benefit Wyatt and all she does is lie to us to get ahead. We have forgiven her only to taken advantage of once again. She continues to lie to us and hurt Wyatt. We always are able to stop her in her actions but at what risk to do hurt Wyatt.
So how do you accept people like that. Why is that OK? Why should I share heaven with people like that. I work hard to do right by Jesus and to live like he does. I help when I can with missions to reach out to people. I do not judge other people by what they do or say. Except her---- is that wrong? Again we are back to why do I get punished when I do the right thing... and she reaps the benefits?
I will do the best I can to move with Jesus and to follow him.... but when it comes to her and the hurt she has caused I cannot forgive or forget. I will NOT treat her the same as every one else.
If that makes me a sinner.... then I need to be saved and I accept that.
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